Richard Gadd and the cast of Baby Reindeer are at a high point in their life, with the creator winning three Emmys just last week. In stark contrast, Fiona Harvey, known as the inspiration behind the character Martha Scott, says she’s “suffering” from “constant panic attacks”, “anxiety” and more.

In his acceptance speech for the acting award, Gadd said he is a huge fan of category competitor Hamm, adding that he had spent the previous evening repeatedly telling the actor how much he loved him. He also thanked his parents, who told him to follow his heart, saying they were a “glaring ommission” from his first speech.